Wednesday, December 22, 2010


It seems like I rarely can sleep... I don't feel even a little tired though. I think getting to sleep is the hardest part. Oh, but when I do sleep I can sleep for a good 6 hours... :/ lame. I'm a teenager, aren't we supposed to sleep like 12 hours and then wake up shower then take a 3 hour nap? Ugh.

Tyler is back home for Christmas break, man I missed that guy. We're going boarding tomorrow. I'd say I was excited, but that is the biggest understatement. (: 
Got my Christmas shopping done? I seem apprehensive about that sentence because I'm not entirely sure if I'm done.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Speculate no more...

No, I am not dead... I just refrained myself from "most" electronics for a minute I guess you could say. I always hate when people use that phrase, I haven't seen you in a "minute" I mean, gosh out of all the words you could use to describe something... you use the word minute? LAME.
Oh, you know how everyone always says, "Love this moment, for this moment is your life"... well, it's not that I don't love this moment, but I feel like I'm missing something. Don't get me wrong though, I love my life. Speaking of love, I got offered a job at Aspen Care Center! Wooo, and also at Lomond Peak, and Alpine Home Care and Hospice. I'm going to accept the Alpine one. I love taking care of people so much. I adore when you help a resident get ready for bed, and you help them shower, brush their teeth (dentures in most cases), and pull down their bed then help them in. When they are all tucked in they look at you and say, "Thank you so much" and you can just tell they mean it. Nine times out of ten, they don't really sincerely mean it, and hello? I'm not naive I know you don't mean it... gosh some peoples children.

Now I hate hate hate watching TV, but I was in the same room as my Mom the other day as she was watching this abc show, and I must say, that it actually made me laugh. It's good to know there is a little hope for sitcoms. On Sunday my Mom had a family Christmas party. It was entertaining! Let me just say this... I hate how my little niece is almost taller than me! What the heck? She's not allowed to grow up! ):
Well, I'm going to go drowned out everything and read until I fall asleep. Night.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010


Hello cruel world!
To start off today, I would first like to say in a pitiful, shameful way that I miss school. I feel like these past few days have been a total bore and I can just sense my brain power diminishing from me. Oh, and another thing, I'm having Dexter withdrawals. Now I hate watching TV, what's the point? To attempt to entertain me with the same story lines and set up. For example: Obnoxious wives, lazy husband, boring kids, annoying in-laws... let me now reiterate why I hate TV, because it's senseless. But, there is always an exception? Right? (:
Dexter, I'd watch TV 24/7 for you if I had too. Luckily my friend Scott has ALL three seasons on DVD. Ah, life is good.
I feel like my hair has reached its optimal growing point... it doesn't appear to be growing past this certain point. Ugh, hair please just grow. Speaking of hair, I'm getting it trimmed today. Maybe, just maybe that will boot its self-esteem and grow an inch or two for me.

I'm craving this! I'm going to talk my friends into going with me today. Wish me luck(:

Thursday, December 9, 2010


 Read this today, and thought it was cute.

When we claim that it’s love that we have for someone, are we correct? Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest? It is not love, it’s like. You can’t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right? It’s not love, it’s lust. Are you proud and eager to show them off? It’s not love, it’s luck. Do you want them because you know they’re there? It’s not love, it’s loneliness. Are you there because it’s what everyone wants? It’s not love, it’s loyalty. Are you there because they kissed you or held your hand? It’s not love, it’s low confidence. Do you stay for their confessions of love because you don’t want to hurt them? It’s not love, it’s pity. Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat? It’s not love, it’s infatuation. Do you pardon their faults because you care about them? It’s not love, it’s friendship. Do you tell them everyday they are the only one you think of? It’s not love, it’s a lie. Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake? It’s not love, it’s charity. Does your heart ache and break when they’re sad? Then it’s love. Do you cry for their pain, even when they’re strong? Then it’s love. Do their eyes see your true heart and touch your soul so deeply it hurts? Then it’s love. Do you stay because blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there? Then it’s love. Do you accept their faults because they are a part of who they are? Then it’s love. Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret? Then it’s love. Would you allow them to leave you not because they want to but because they have to? Then it’s love. Would you give them your heart, your life, your death? Then it’s love. If love is painful and tortures us, why do we love? Why is it that’s all we search for in life?

Woot, got offered a job at Aspen Care Center. (: Things are starting to look up. I love my life.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010


I think it is very hilarious how much you can deduce about a person just by paying minimal attention to their driving habits... some people are baffling. Seriously people, relax and enjoy the scenery-but not to much, we don't want any head-on collisions or what not. In fact, I'm so relaxed that I have old people speed past me and glance me a nasty (you're going 55 in a 55 zone... in reality you should be going 65 in a 55 zone face), I feel like a complete and utter loser for having middle ages citizens passing me up on the Old Highway.
Next semester should be better, and by better I mean I better get my act together and STUDY. I must say, I think I did pretty grand for not studying(: I shouldn't commend myself for that, huh? Ooops.
I wish I was at Dixie, I need to be attending Dixie, I want to be thriving at Dixie... Dixie, I'll see you soon.
Is it just me? Or are there a lot less lights up on houses each year...
Funny story! Woke up this morning, got ready for school in record time may I add, got to school in a timely manor, and as I was walking in to the building (with lots of students learning in pure silence) and to my surprise my shoes are squeaking so loud that not one head didn't turn and scold me as I shamefully walked passed... ugh. Why must I repeatedly humiliate myself?   

                                                                   Adorable? Right?

Monday, December 6, 2010

Technical difficulties

Don't you just love technology? And don't you just love when technology breaks? My laptop is currently under the weather... therefore I can't blog ): Yes, I know tragic! I'm thinking I should just buy a new one!! :D